Late Night Ramblings

I hate change. I really do. I really just hate change.

For those of you who have known me for any period of time, you might be thinking to yourself, "Wait, how can Tregea hate change?" As you are thinking of that, pictures of all the different colors of my hair are creating a little slide show in your head. I know that it is a little ironic that I, who loathes change, do tend to change things about me fairly regularly. I guess that a better way to put it, is that I do not like change that I cannot control.

When I honestly think about it, I have several reasons I do not like change. Change and I have have been friends who are at opposite ends of the fighting ring. I cannot say who is winning; I just know that I am definitely learning. Anyways, for the sake of this blog I will only be talking about a few of the reasons that I am at odds with this topic.

In this past week the majority of my friends have left to go back to school. That is including a lot of my friends who attended school with me this previous year. I wish them all the best. I wonder if and what I am missing out on by staying in my home town for the first two years of my college career. I keep thinking about a popular Ralph Emerson quote, in which he says,

"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else."

If you understand what he is saying, (which really isn't that difficult) then you can understand part of my frustration. I thoroughly enjoy staying at USC Sumter and having a low-key first half of my undergraduate and that I am saving money. I love that I get to enjoy the comfort of my home for a couple more years. I love that I can still stay up late with my momma and watch George Lopez or The Golden Girls with her. I love that I get to have good sweet tea every morning. Especially after events that flipped my world, I am so thankful for the gift of home. But, I still stop myself thinking about what I might be giving up for this wonderful luxury. Is this where I need to be? Or am I here just because I am afraid of change?

I guess my entire post could be summed into, I do not like change, I think entirely too much late at night and tend to get off topic. As you can see in my favorite quotes, I have Ecclesiastes 3:11 listed. This verse is very comforting to the restless, ever changing soul, so I will leave you with Ecclesiastes 3:11-13.

¹¹ Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. ¹² So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. ¹³ And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God.